I’m almost to embarrassed to write this post, but I’m committed to being honest in our relationship with you as the reader and me as the writer, and I will hold to my word.
This week has been very difficult for me. I got the runs. And I got them bad.
In the early hours of monday morning I heard a rumbling in my tummy, and it happened. It all happened, at once. I was so ashamed but I was overcome with urgency and shame all at once and while I always try to stay proud and keep my chin up – I couldn’t make it happen this time. I curled up in the corner and cried. Yep, I admit it. I took to tears, and I’ll never forget it.
I was found that way in the morning when Tank came to get my for breakfast. By that time my belly was being much better and I thought that I was approaching my own freedom from the experience, but I was wrong.
Not only did I not get any breakfast, but I also was kept home from camp and forced to take a bath. It was horrible. I was so cold, and the shivering from the shower just brought my right back to the dark hours in the corner of my crate.
I’ve had a few dark days, I’m not going to lie. I fell into a deep depression, and was consumed by my personal shame.
There were moments when I couldn’t even get out of bed. I didn’t think I would ever feel happiness again. My favorite babies lay next to me, neglected and lifeless.
Tank tried to console me, but he was still living a rich life full of food, treats, and doing exactly what he loves the most: napping. It’s cool that he likes it, but it’s not for me. I need more action.
I finally went back to camp Tuesday to give it a shot and then took another day off on Wednesday to recover. I tried to lay low on the couch and just chill with my roomies so I could have full energy for camp again today.
It paid off. Camp was ah-mazinnnng! Not only did I get to see Toby, but I got to stay in during nap and be Santa’s little helper, putting together holiday treats for all the other campers.
I’m an awesome helper, but my recent days of starvation made me it really difficult not to just bury my face in the treat bowl and eat my way out. I mean, come on people, this is like worse than the Hunger Games.
I was pretty beat when I got home tonight but I am finally back to my own food (no more chicken + rice for this girl). I’m hitting the sack early tonight because I’m pulling back to back days at camp so I need to make sure I’m recharged.
Stay cool my babies, and stay away from me if you have germs.